Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Ok, I know that it has been a LONG time since I posted anything on this thing but I'm back for the moment to update you with some thoughts I've had during my hiatus. As a mom, I think the number 1 hardest thing about life right now is simply finding balance. I feel like I have a million things to do each day and there is not enough time in the day to do them. And I don't even work! So, I really don't know how full time working moms do it. I am just so very blessed to be able to stay at home with the kids and have my husband provide completely. But at the end of the day I still sometimes have the "mom guilt," like did I spend enough quality time with everyone today? Did Ethan watch too much TV? Did Emily help out too much today? Did Eli eat enough healthy foods? And the list goes on. It really is a task to balance everything out, and I think sometimes in my head, I plan out what my day is going to be like i.e. exercise, breakfast, shower, clean house, spend time with kids, lunch, run errands, laundry, dishes, dinner, read from Bible,spend time w/ hubby and then bedtime. And it is so funny it never ends up like that. And at first, meaning about the time Eli came, I would get so frustrated that I didn't do all of this every. single. day. If I got things done that would mean that I didn't get much time with the kids that day. And If I did get good quality time with the kids I didn't get anything done. Well, I am really working hard on this. If I could just LET GO of all of the feelings of having to be that "super mom" type figure I would really just learn to enjoy life and enjoy my family. So what if there's toys everywhere, my bed is not made, the kitchen is dirty, my laundry room is half painted, and I still have a some baby weight to loose? My kids aren't going to grow up and remember how much dirty laundry we always had or that there was always dirty dishes laying around. They are going to remember that their mom cooked for them all the time, instead of running threw a drive threw every night, and they are going to remember during the summer playing all day and swimming and just really enjoying the time out of school. So, I need to get a grip. I DO NOT have to do everything everyday. And everything DOES NOT have to be perfect all of the time. With that being said, that is why I have not updated my blog in a while. (This is going somewhere, I promise) When I first started it, I felt like I needed to constantly be updating it and getting hits where I could add ads and eventually be making a little (and I do mean little) amount of money off it. But I just don't think that is the plan anymore. The plan now is to update it when I can and not stress about it. To take life one day at a time and enjoy every. single. moment. My babies are way too precious to deserve anything less than ALL of me.